ABSTRACT DIARY

jis tarah tum guzarte hoo faraz
zindagi is tarah guzerti nahin !

i m not living my life nowdays ,but life is living me .

"If a woman is tough, she is pushy.
If a man is tough, gosh, he’s a great leader."
Margaret Thatcher

some months before while i was in university ,my human resources and organizational behaviour teacher's talk so much about the satisfaction or dissatisfaction . For me then ,satisfaction was very static phenomenon which comes in your life when u 're old and have alot of time to think....then you start thinking about satisfaction or dissatisfaction........
I was wrong....!!! satisfaction is a very dyanamic phenomemn and it can almost ruin ur life if u add "dis " to the word "satisfaction". Dissatisfaction is like a slow poison....it kills but silently and slowly.
I don't know WHY but i m feeling very dissatisfied with everything happening to me and with every one around me . May be it is not a satisfaction and disatisfaction issue rahter it is a issue of sabr(patience) and shukar(gratitude) ....these days i have come to know it is difficult to do sabr.....but there is no other option besides sabr sometimes......
i just seem to have questions ..a lot of questions with no asnwers.
why it happens that some ppl get things very easily while others have to work too hard for the same thing ?
why there are so many "why" in our lives? it might be just self pity......
lately i was reading bang-e-dara . and i realy like this piece

sheher ki alo'dgi ne zehr itna bhar diya
sanp ne kata mujhe aur kat'te he mar gaya

"A Drop received in need should be repaid with a whole river"

It is not much Important that what YOU want ,,but the more important is what you get......
and ONE should work hard as hard as one can ,,but then he/she should compromise with what he /she get....
and hard work not always turn into positive outcome because sometimes what you want is not good for YOU,,,confusing,,,not much....
i have given my first job interview ,the interview happened in the very good and cordial environment and i throughly enjoyed it.the interviewer asked the very same things which can be asked to interviewee (qualification,family,Assignments ). the worst thing is that i have to travel for exactly one and half hour to reach their head office.
the visit was quite tiring but i enjoyed it.
staying at home from two month or so ,,it is quite boring.There are things which i can do and there are so much work in pending but i don't feel like doing it.